January 31, 2012

Choosing the Next Note in the Sonata -
Making Marriage

I sat at my piano yesterday, transposing chords to a worship song written by another, when my Yamaha began shorting out.  Breath held.  Stomach tight.  Oh, Jesus...do You see me right now?  Is Your attention turned toward my rising desperation?  I pressed the power button and gave it a minute.  Power.  It played!  ...For a moment, then shorted again.  "Aaron??!!!"  Pressing soundless notes drained my heart.  I felt in my eyes the fullness of deep wells being rained in, preparing for overflow.  His rushing to me acknowledged my need for feet back to floor.  He cupped my face with forehead touching mine and said quietly, "Shh...it was time for an upgrade anyway.  This is a necessity.  You and your dreams are worth it.  We'll find a way..."  His knowing me and his continual choosing of me consumed me in that instant.  Not because he was willing to spend money on me, no...he values me, my heart, and part of the calling of God on my life for worship.

We are both meant to be the earthly portrayal of the One to each other.  The One who held us close to breathe life into our nostrils.  The One who wrote the sonata of our love - the longing, the finding home, birthing new life, and growing old.  Jesus and Aaron are my gravity when my emotions and thoughts fail; also the soaring flight of wings that tell me to dream bigger, believe bigger, live bigger, wholly.  

Today he eats the soup I made and sings to me a hammed falsetto version of Unchained Melody that breaks through my focus on what I'm doing and reminds me to be.  I laugh - hard.  And I smile - big - when his arm wraps around my waist at the sink. 

Sometimes, with unnatural country twang, he sings this:

Love grows best in little houses,
With fewer walls to separate,
Where you eat and sleep so close together.
You can't help but communicate,
Oh, and if we had more room between us, think of all we'd miss.
Love grows best, in houses just like this.

Allow venerability.
Pay attention to heart needs.
Pursue romance first and watch your feelings follow.
And laugh often.

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6 comments:

  1. oh, Rebecca. This is beautiful. Yes. Love like this.

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  2. I want to take a moment to say that I am a real follower of your blog! lol I check it daily and can't wait to read what goes up :) Thank you for pouring out invested time in sharing your thoughts with us. I barely commit to my blog :*( so Thanks for stopping by and leaving me comments, it is highly encouraging!!

    Love you!

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      ...I want to take a moment to say that I am a real follower of your blog! lol I check it daily and can't wait to read what goes up :) Thank you for pouring out invested time in sharing your thoughts with us. so Thanks for stopping by and leaving me comments, it is highly encouraging!!

      Love you!!!!!

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    1. I appreciate that, Amber, thank you. :) Thank you for visiting my blog, I hope you return! Have you liked From My Mountain View on Facebook or Followed on Twitter? Almost daily I post things on them that are not on the blog that you might be interested in, like quotes, recommendations, and even giveaways! :)

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