I never tripped over toys in my own home.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
I had never been puked on.
I slept all night.
I never wondered why the hospital would let us take her home.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I never thought that I wasn't qualified to do this job.
I didn't know how much the line, "this will hurt me more than you," was true.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby with my own body.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child that my mother had told me about.
I didn't know I would surge more in love with my husband watching him instantly fall in love with someone less than 10 pounds.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
I never knew that I could love someone so very much.
It never crossed my mind that it would be ME that would be responsible to instill healthy habits in other lives.
I thought then that I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I never thought about how every word I say gets heard.
I thought two might be enough.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.