Why did I stop writing? --Because I haven't had time.
Why? --I didn't make time.
Why? --Well, it's not that it isn't important to me, it is actually, it helps me think, helps me go deep, I like to go deep...so, because I really didn't want to write.
Why? --I really didn't want to go deep.
Why? --Because going deep right now would force me to be honest with myself and God about a few things that I really didn't want to deal with.
Why? --Oh. *I'm getting a wee frustrated now.* Becaaauuussse, acknowledgment would invoke change.
Why? --Because I cannot fully acknowledge these things and deal with them and give them to God and continue living life out as if I never did, now could I?
Why don't you want that change? --Because it would be hard.
Why? --Because most things in life that are worth doing and are important to do and that God is telling you to step out and do them are...well, difficult.
Are you willing for the learning to sometimes be hard, sometimes even painful for your flesh, in order to be exactly where God wants you to be and to grow even more deeply into His heart?
*sigh*.........YES.
So, blogging: ready or not, here we come... ;-]
Hahaha =)I love it. I think that's the game we play a lot...and aren't willing to admit it, along with everything else! I love that you blogged about it! =D
ReplyDelete